… is that I won’t be having my next chemotherapy session for quite a while.
It seems that in the opinion of the hospital, I’m far to ill right now to go through all of the stresses that chemotherapy will provide and they think that I ought to recover first.
I have to say that I don’t like the sound of that one little bit. As far as I’m concerned, being ill doesn’t make the slightest difference. I don’t see an issue about chemotherapy making me any more ill – I’ll be suffering just the same and the quicker the treatment starts, the quicker it will be over and the quicker I’ll start to recover. Waiting until I’m feeling better and then making me ill again is just in my opinion absurd. I only want to be ill once.
And if I don’t improve, then I won’t ever have the chemotherapy and then I’ll be back where I started all of these months ago and that’s really defeating the purpose of my coming here.
As you can tell, I’ve had a visit from the doctor this afternoon. She didn’t stay long and didn’t even give me a check-over – she just came to give me the news.
I had a really bad night again last night. I took ages to go off to sleep, mainly due to the fact that I had a really bad pain right across the right side of my chest. It just wouldn’t go away and I just couldn’t find a comfortable position. It was so bad that I felt like calling for some emergency help (now that’s not like me, is it?) but I managed to hang on.
And then once I did drop off, I kept on waking up time after time after time. I really can’t sleep properly at all in this place. But drop off I must have done, because I was off on my travels again.
I was in a house that I owned, in Nantwich down by Crewe Road end but it wasn’t a terraced house such as is there but a modern semi-detached property. I’d had the morning off work and was due to go in for the afternoon but all kinds of delays were holding me up. eventually, I’d sorted out my pushbike, found my heavy blue-grey overcoat, decided what cap I was going to wear (because it was teeming down outside) and eventually I set off. But it was freezing cold too and I decided that I needed my gloves so had to turn back. And this made me wonder whether it was worth setting out again as the office would be closed by the time that I arrived. But as I reached back home I noticed my red Ford Cortina estate, XCL 465X, in the drive and it had been driven in instead of reversed in, as I always do without fail when I’m parking. That took me completely by surprise.
And a little later we were at a huge Open University Students Association (OUSA) meeting and there were hundreds of us in attendance. I found my way in, nearly last (not like me) and struggled into a corner where there were several people whom I knew, including a girl called Jane who was in my class at school (what she was doing at an OUSA meeting is anyone’s guess). We were having a chat about old times when the meeting abruptly started. The first speaker, a woman we knew, started to talk but went so quick that we couldn’t make notes and everyone bellowed at her in unison to slow down and start again – which she did, but after a couple of minutes started to roar off again and we found it impossible to keep track of what we were saying.
The doctor wasn’t the only visitor that I had either. I had a hospital visitor come to chat with me for a couple of minutes and that was quite a break from my routine. She didn’t have much to say, which was no surprise, but she tried her best to cheer me up and encourage my morale and you can never criticise someone for that.
But while I was talking to her, I somehow managed to put my back out of joint and that hurt for ages. I’m definitely breaking up, aren’t I?
The rest of the day has been quite quiet. I’ve sat in the day room and, for a change, done some work (I need to keep myself properly organised and properly focused), and that’s really my lot. As you know, there’s not really a lot else that I can be doing right now. I need to exert myself a little but it’s not easy. Even if I were to find the motivation, there ust aren’t the opportunities just now.
Still, maybe I’ll cheer up tomorrow.
Perhaps you over exerted yourself by going back to Montlucon?
Maybe you need some bed baths from some nice curvy nurses? That’ll make you feel better soon.
Hi Eric
sorry to read that you are not progressing as hoped, do they actually know whats causing it all?
It all seemed so positive when you first got to Belgium. You seem to be thinking positively enough .I read your posts to keep up with the news and I sincerly hope that there will soon be a light at the end of the tunnel and you will be back to your old adventures in the real world as your blogs and travels have given me a lot of reading pleasure,thx for that.
Keep on Rockin and dont give up the fight
regards and thoughts
Grahame
Thanks people for the encouragement. But when you are up to your neck in alligators, it’s hard to remember that you are only trying to drain the swamp.
I’ll keep on trucking once I can leave this accursed place, and I’ll try to remember that things could be much worse – I mean, I could be in Montlucon where they had run out of ideas and weren’t doing anything at all!
Remember you have a date with my grey beauty!
Got to figure out how to unbend the bifold door. Looks like somebody tried to pry it at some point before I bought it. The bottom 3/4 sits outside the receiving track.
Presumably it’s metal. If so, heat it along the crease and the neighbouring areas and then build a clamp frame to fit over it – use self-tapping screws to draw the metal to the framework that you are using. Don’t try to bend it if it’s cold – that won’t ever work.
There’s no visible bend. The glass in the door is unbroken. It’s as though the both doors have been slightly twisted. The top fits nicely in the receiving groove. I’ll have to put some photos up on my blog maybe tonight. Tomorrow and Thursday I will be dog tired due to work.
The bottom of the door is outside the groove and seems to be outside the groove for 3/4 of its length. Pushing on the bottom of the door as I close it from outside using the handle I installed, I can make it sit nicely in its groove.
I checked to see if the door is mounted crookedly. It is but by an eighth of an inch along its whole length. That’s not enough to account for the twist.