{"id":18454,"date":"2024-06-24T21:33:44","date_gmt":"2024-06-24T21:33:44","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/lesguis.com\/wp\/?p=18454"},"modified":"2024-06-25T05:52:13","modified_gmt":"2024-06-25T05:52:13","slug":"monday-24th-june-2024-its-been-another","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/lesguis.com\/wp\/?p=18454","title":{"rendered":"Monday 24th June 2024 &#8211; IT&#8217;S BEEN ANOTHER &#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>&#8230;long, hard, miserable, depressing afternoon when I&#8217;ve been more asleep than awake, more dead than alive<\/p>\n<p>And that&#8217;s exactly how I&#8217;m feeling too &#8211; more dead than alive. This afternoon has been horrible and I can safely say that there was a certain moment when I felt worse than I&#8217;ve ever felt with this illness.<\/p>\n<p>What&#8217;s depressing me about it is that it&#8217;s not actually anything physical. Having bitten off my tongue and having it sewn back after a car accident in 1987 I know what pain is, believe me, and while the physical feeling is nothing like the same of course, it&#8217;s something about when I awaken from one of these coma-type things<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s as if there&#8217;s some kind of chemical being released into my body which immediately makes me think of one of these pills, powders and potions.<\/p>\n<p>When we we were at school and the teacher left the Chemistry class for a few minutes, we&#8217;d experiment by dropping different chemicals into a test-tube in order to see what happened.<\/p>\n<p>Sometimes something would go &#8220;boom&#8221; so we&#8217;d make a note of what it was that we&#8217;d mixed together so that it would come in useful in our adult life and boy, did we sometimes have some impressive &#8220;booms&#8221;. I wonder if somehow somewhere a couple of these chemicals are having the same effect inside me once their protective coating wears off in my stomach.<\/p>\n<p>The medical professionals have assured me that that&#8217;s not the case and, after all, they ought to know, so I could go to bed without having to worry about anything.<\/p>\n<p>Except going to bed of course. It was another really late night again last night by the time that I finished everything and I wished that I&#8217;d finished everything an hour or two earlier.<\/p>\n<p>But exhausted as I was after my efforts I crawled into bed, I didn&#8217;t need much rocking. I was asleep quite quickly and didn&#8217;t feel a thing until the alarm went off. IN fact, judging by the position in which I was lying, I don&#8217;t think that I&#8217;d moved at all during the night &#8211; not one inch.<\/p>\n<p>It was a very groggy me that lifted a shoulder from the bed when <a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=lAacOHkQMzw\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">BILLY COTTON<\/a> finally called and you&#8217;ve no idea the struggle that I had to leave the bed before the second alarm five minutes later.<\/p>\n<p>In the bathroom I had a really good wash and brush up, and then went for breakfast. Grape juice and strong coffee with porridge and a couple of slices of my lovely, perfect fresh loaf toasted and smothered in vegan butter. Totally forgetting that I was supposed to have nothing whatever this morning as there was a blood test. <\/p>\n<p>Ahh well. They&#8217;ll just have some very peculiar results but so what? Many of my results are already quite peculiar and so a few more won&#8217;t make any difference. It&#8217;ll give them something to think about at the hospital and stop them being bored. <\/p>\n<p>The nurse did in fact ask me <strong><em>&#34;you haven&#8217;t eaten, have you?&#34;<\/em><\/strong><br \/>\n<strong><em>&#34;Who? Me?&#34;<\/em><\/strong> I asked innocently, brushing the toast crumbs under the table quickly.<\/p>\n<p>One thing I forget though is how many times he told me to write my name and date of birth on &#8230; errr &#8230; another little sample pot. But let&#8217;s be honest &#8211; no-one could ever mix up anyone else&#8217;s &#8230; errr &#8230; &#8220;sample&#8221; with mine.<\/p>\n<p>He spent quite a lot of time today worrying about nothing at all but also gave me a shopping list of the supplies that he uses that are running low. So after he left I sent a mail to my loyal cleaner in order to set her a task while she was in town.<\/p>\n<p>Next thing was to put away everything that I&#8217;d used yesterday and washed up. It had been draining overnight and needed tidying up. And there was a lot of it too. I didn&#8217;t realise that I had so much stuff. No wonder that I was struggling for room on the worktop.<\/p>\n<p>But it&#8217;s a shame about the oven too. When I was on my final fling around Europe two years ago I picked up a fully-fitted full-size oven from Jean-Marc, the guy with whose family in Macon I stayed on a school exchange in 1970. He was modernising his kitchen and the oven that he&#8217;d just taken out found its way into Caliburn.<\/p>\n<p>Hans lives in Munich about half a mile from one of the biggest IKEAs in Europe and so about a week later when I was there, I bought a kitchen unit in which to fit the oven.<\/p>\n<p>That&#8217;s in the back of Caliburn downstairs too, but I don&#8217;t have the physical ability to bring it all up here. So all of that stuff will have to stay there and I&#8217;ll soldier on with my little desktop oven.<\/p>\n<p>In here I didn&#8217;t do much at first. It takes me a while to warm up, as regular readers of this rubbish will recall. <\/p>\n<p>There was some stuff on the dictaphone from last night, which was a surprise. Mind you, I&#8217;ve no idea what to make of it. &#8220;There was the boys stuff and then more stuff about bombers &#8230; <em>indistinct<\/em> &#8230; and I can&#8217;t remember any of it which is a shame&#8221; and that was all that it said. <\/p>\n<p>Whatever it&#8217;s supposed to mean, I haven&#8217;t a clue. When I say that I was &#8220;away with the fairies&#8221; I think that I was over the hills and far away when I dictated that.<\/p>\n<p>There was a &#8216;phone call too &#8211; could I go earlier to see the surgeon tomorrow? I declined the invitation because quite simply firstly I mess the taxi company around often enough with some of my trips. I don&#8217;t want to exhaust their goodwill by unnecessary changes.<\/p>\n<p>Secondly, I have my Welsh lesson tomorrow and I&#8217;ve already missed far too many sessions what with hospital and all of that. I can&#8217;t really afford to miss any more.<\/p>\n<p>The cleaner came round a couple of times to drop off different things. Apparently the nurse&#8217;s prescription has run out but the chemist obliged. The nurse must write out a prescription tomorrow for today&#8217;s supplies and I mustn&#8217;t forget to tell him.<\/p>\n<p>While she was here I gave her a list of supplies to be bought from LeClerc when she goes to do her shopping. Things like my sunflower seeds and vegan cheese aren&#8217;t available on home delivery <\/p>\n<p>After lunch, back in here I began to carry on with the editing of the notes that I&#8217;d recorded on Saturday night (thanks, Grahame) but this was where my troubles began.<\/p>\n<p>No matter how I tried, I just couldn&#8217;t keep going. At one point I thought that if I just let myself go, have a good sleep and awaken, I&#8217;ll feel fresh enough to accomplish more than I would be fighting it off all afternoon.<\/p>\n<p>Some hopes. It made me feel worse.<\/p>\n<p>Finally at about 19:15 I began to pull myself together and by 19:30 I could go to make tea. A plie of stuffing, some of which went into a stuffed pepper and the rest into a container in the fridge for the next few days.<\/p>\n<p>But with pasta and veg cooked in a tomato sauce, my stuffed pepper cooked in the air fryer was delicious, as it usually is. As I have said before &#8230; <em>&#34;and on many occasions too&#34; &#8211; ed<\/em> &#8230; I eat quite simply here but I don&#8217;t &#8216;arf eat well.<\/p>\n<p>But right now I&#8217;m off to bed. I need to be at my best tomorrow as I have my Welsh lesson, this appointment with the surgeon and who knows what? <\/p>\n<p>However I am going to make a rule, and that is &#8220;no breakfast until after the nurse has been and gone&#8221;. That way we can avoid any more unfortunate lapses of memory.<\/p>\n<p>After all, we don&#8217;t want him in such a bad mood that he makes a mess of my blood test. It&#8217;s painful enough as it is without asking to be hurt. <\/p>\n<p>But the way that he snatched up my other &#8230; errr &#8230; little sample pot before leaving. I thought to myself <strong><em>&#34;now that is REALLY taking the p*ss&#34;<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n<div class='watch-action'><div class='watch-position align-left'><div class='action-like'><a class='lbg-style1 like-18454 jlk' href='javascript:void(0)' data-task='like' data-post_id='18454' data-nonce='75100d608e' rel='nofollow'><img class='wti-pixel' src='https:\/\/lesguis.com\/wp\/wp-content\/plugins\/wti-like-post\/images\/pixel.gif' title='Like' \/><span class='lc-18454 lc'>0<\/span><\/a><\/div><div class='action-unlike'><a class='unlbg-style1 unlike-18454 jlk' href='javascript:void(0)' data-task='unlike' data-post_id='18454' data-nonce='75100d608e' rel='nofollow'><img class='wti-pixel' src='https:\/\/lesguis.com\/wp\/wp-content\/plugins\/wti-like-post\/images\/pixel.gif' title='Unlike' \/><span class='unlc-18454 unlc'>0<\/span><\/a><\/div> <\/div> <div class='status-18454 status align-left'><\/div><\/div><div class='wti-clear'><\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>&#8230;long, hard, miserable, depressing afternoon when I&#8217;ve been more asleep than awake, more dead than alive And that&#8217;s exactly how I&#8217;m feeling too &#8211; more dead than alive. This afternoon has been horrible and I can safely say that there was a certain moment when I felt worse than I&#8217;ve ever felt with this illness. 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